Is It Different This Time?

I didn’t have time to watch the memorial service for George Floyd today.  I caught glimpses of it as I could.  And in doing so, I noticed something about myself.  I don’t feel any of the sickness that I felt when I heard news of the acquittal of the killer of Trayvon Martin.  This feels really different, so I searched myself for why.  I wondered if it was because I have become accustomed to this tragic aspect of our society.  No, it isn’t that.  I’m not becoming jaded.  This murder of George Floyd is quite disillusioning.  But, it is definitely different.  

I remember when the news hit about the acquittal. People consuming the news took different sides.  It was quite political to believe that Martin was a victim.  A disturbing number thought of George Zimmerman as both a victim and a celebrity.  Stand Your Ground laws were spreading around the country at the time, and it was part of the discussion for the killing in this case, although I don’t remember if it was the ultimate justification.  Case after case gained publicity about how black shooters were judged differently from white ones.  It was frightening and sickening.  As sad as the Floyd murder is, it feels so very different.  I can tell exactly how in the following way.

When the acquittal was announced, simultaneously, friends of my wife were driving across the country in a large RV.  I love that stuff, and I am generally fascinated.  They were driving through Columbus, and asked to see us when they came through.  I recall at that time that I did not want to go outside to see anyone.  I opted out.  I never would have done that under normal circumstances, but I had deep questions about people as that event was being publicized.  How could people feel the way that so many did, I wondered.  Do you recall that George Zimmerman’s handgun sold at auction for hundreds of thousands of dollars?  The sale did not go through for some reason, but the circus surrounding that tragedy was macabre.  

The trial of the officers involved in the killing of George Floyd has not begun.  It may be quite some time before that happens, but it seems different this time.  Although there was damning audio of George Zimmerman disobeying a dispatcher’s orders, there was no video.  Maybe it is the presence of the video of the sadistic killing of George Floyd that has made the difference.  That would be ironic in some ways, because I find it quite difficult to watch.  I watched it maybe twice, and I think I am done with that.  I don’t want to combine what I now know about that crime with what can plainly be seen.  That is entirely too much dark, evil to just absorb…ever.  And there is video of what happened with Ahmad Arbery, and three men did get arrested, although it took several months and a second agency to come in and essentially make an investigation where the first wouldn’t.  Things seem a little different.  I read today that one of the McMichaels who killed Ahmad Arbery called him a “fucking nigger” as he lay dying.

That seemed pretty much like it used to.  It was happenstance that got a second/actual investigation of this crime, and the assailant seemed more concerned with Arbery’s race than this story about being a burglar.  Still no trial yet, obviously.

Breyonna Taylor was shot in her bed by officers who burst in on a no-knock warrant.  Her boyfriend tried to shoot the intruders (police), but they shot and killed Breyonna.  Bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang!  And then she was dead.  That seemed familiar in some ways, and not all that hopeful.  Shot eight times in her bed, when it comes to being wrong, that sounds about right.  There is no video of that incident though.  

When the video of the murder of George Floyd was released, I did not see any defense of Derek Chauvin the way I saw George Zimmerman defended.  Was it because it happened in Minnesota and not Florida?  Is it because the murder did not involve a gun, and defending Zimmerman had the added benefit of defending guns for the gun lobby, but there is no knee lobby, as far I know.  If Derek Chauvin had removed his holstered weapon and shot George Floyd in broad daylight, while cuffed, would this have played out the way it has so far?  Would the gun lobby have rushed in to defend Chauvin?  

I was working as an officer the night Rodney King was beaten by members of my own department, although a different division.  I observed at the time that the King incident would have been different had it played out with guns as opposed to the PR-24 side-handle baton.  If all the other factors were the same, except for the division, and King were so fronted in my division, he would have been shot.  I am absolutely certain of that.  No one in Hollywood division bothered to take a baton out of where it is stored in the door when they got out of the vehicle.  It was not generally a useful tool in the dense, active decision that Hollywood was.  Foothill, where King was arrested was rural.  It was much slower.  Understand that I am not advocating for this, just observing that, not only would King have been shot, it would not have received as much notice because suspects being shot in exactly that type of circumstance was relatively ordinary.  It was the drawn out, brutal beating of King that made people notice…and the video, of course.  

So, why is it different now?  Is it the people protesting?  Maybe, maybe not.  

We will be tested very soon.  Will America be different next time?  I’m afraid that unless there is a change in some laws, things will be more like they used to be.  I thought for sure that Sandy Hook would lead to changes.  It didn’t.  No, there were no cops involved, but I think the reason things did not change after that horror was that guns WERE involved.  Evil cops will figure that out soon.  They will just say, next time, just shoot ‘em.  It frightens me that it may not be different this time at all.

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